As I stated in my “About me” piece I am a college student. I am currently on the track of pursuing business law but I am looking to change to Global politics. With being a vital member of the UN and creating policies that globally impact the world serving as the ultimate goal, I feel this would be a better suit for me. I was planning on taking the more common route by pursuing law then going into politics, but I decided to stop listening to others and do what I feel and what I feel God is trying to show me. As I said I am working to walk by faith not by sight.
Aside from academics being a Christian woman going to a public college can be difficult. Before we had parents or mentors to look to for guidance and redirection, but in college it feels as if you are on your own in a way. College is the place where people want to “explore” their new found freedom; but I am here to say it is not worth it. I was very lost and lonely when I first came to college because I found my self trying to be something I was not: going to parties, drinking, trying to get guys attention.. it just wasn’t me. Even tho I knew it was wrong I would internally argue with my self and try to justify why I thought a little sip of Ciroc wasn’t bad and that maybe just going to the party for thirty minutes was ok. I would wonder why I was overcome with a sense of guilt and the feeling of worthlessness the next day (sometimes even as fast as the first few steps out of the dark, sweat filled, hot-breathe/buttcheek smelling party) … when everyone else was so happy and content with feeding their own pleasures. Quite frankly that is where I went wrong, comparing myself. God has a special purpose for everyone and some things that you encounter are not gonna be for you; things that make one person happy or even a whole group of people happy is not always going to make you happy and that is ok. You are not going to fit into every crowd or mesh with every clique. You have to make an effort to find your niche, look to the lord, and ensure you are comfortable in your own skin. Make an effort to cast your cares and worries onto the lord instead of scrummaging for a quick fix. Looking back, I am so thankful because I know he was protecting me. Usually when you feel like you don’t fit in it’s because you are not meant to be in that crowd. He has a better plan and a better place for you; but yea… those first few months were very tough. I was very confused and lost. Reflecting on it, I realize I was constantly looking to fulfill others expectations of what the college experience is supposed to be like. Truth is, it is going to be different for everyone; your morals, values, and how you were raised will really begin to kick in (hopefully).
I feel college is the start of your life, the time where you will start being held accountable as an adult for all of your actions. Personally I want to represent God and myself respectfully and in a way that will make him proud. This is the time where we have to chose whether It is worth it to please others and our flesh or please God; do I want eternal life or 15 seconds of pleasure. I’ve realized God is so good to me and does so much for me I don’t understand why I wouldn’t want to give him the little that he asks for. I don’t like using others so why would I even think to selfishly use God.
I can not express how grateful I am for being back in a place of content, truth, and peace…the place I am suppose to be. I had to sit down and recognize what was really important to me. Don’t let the temptation of 1 hour of pleasure lead you off the path you are meant to be on, be strong in your faith and have integrity. Happiness and success will find you but you have to make that sacrifice and decide what is more important to you. College is a crazy place and it can be confusing if you are not committed to to the lord.. Shoot it can be confusing even if you are committed. All in all I hope that we can be strong.. strong for Christ, allow him to guide our footsteps. Be content with who you are and recognize what God has in store for you is exceedingly and abundantly greater than anything this world could ever do for you.